结婚了

终于结婚了。心情有点复杂。祝福？？不需要我的祝福，他们也很幸福了。

肚子很痛，心有点酸，人有点累，思绪混乱了……

当我在这里忙得像狗一样，别人已经踏入另一个阶段了。那我的 忙碌是为了什么？？

虚假

对朋友失望了……已经没有期待了。

这也许教会了我，如何虚假的面对生活，面对身边的“朋友”。原来不能真实地面对朋友，他们并不稀罕。

是你们教会我这个道理的，我会如你们所愿，变成如你们般，只顾自己的“朋友”。

my feeling this few days

i m so tired this few days. keep going out, veen sometimes i m forced to go.

i wanna reject, but somehow i m worry bout my projects, activities n all the things. may be i m a fool.

b4 this, i thought i wil just simply fall in love to someone that will always concern me o wat, now only i know, if we didnt really like the person, how well he treat u , u wont accept him too.

but luckily, now he is quit from my life, n i dun have to think the reason o take the chance to tell him what i m feeling now. great.

my wish is to have a bf, not "guy". i mean, what i need is someone that can really understand me, n ready to be a good listener to me. i always have trouble in my life, hopefully there is someone else ready to accept all my weaknesses, n take care of me.

haha~great dream.. mm.. it might not be happened in my life, may be i will be single until the end of my life, but what's wrong for me to has a dream such as this? hehe..

我是奴隶。

我觉得，现在的我是别人的奴隶。不，应该是说，从来，我就是别人的奴隶。

就因为别人把我吹捧得天上有地下无的聪明，我就必须每每把别人说“不会”的事扛在身上。我受够了。人， 是会感到疲惫的。没有人应当为谁付出。但是，当我辛苦地把每件别人不肯扛的事扛在身上时，每个人竟把这当成了理所当然的事。

我没有资格哭。我没有时间能浪费在“哭”的身上。我也没有资格骂任何人。事至如此，没有一次能让我开心地做事，同样的事每天在重演，而没有人会体谅我的辛苦。如果只是一次的发生，那还说不定是别人的错，但是当每个人都对我作同样的事时，就是我的纵容，把自己变成这样。

我，是奴隶。别人的奴隶。如此地专业，连我都佩服自己了。

累了

我累了。有点累了。

每当我想起自己的努力不被珍惜时，心中总会不禁地叹气。

世界如此地大，又有谁会为了我的眼泪而停留？我明白，现在的我，只能硬撑着，就算眼前的难过淹没了我，却没有人在乎了。

let it go~~make things to be easy

recently, the life here is packed. sometimes i just wonder when is my sleeping time. anyway, i still chat wit my fren bout the relationship here.

i have nothing to say. i always tel ppl i m not like a girl. i m another way of guy. haha...
actually i know i m not attractive at all, rude, n not beautiful at all. my fren say, no ugly girl in tis worl but lazy girls~~~

yes, i admit that i m truly lazy, nothing to do on it. the most important thing is, i didnt put effort to change myself. may be after i change my behaviour i will be more shining than now, bu who cares?

a guy say i m really niot like a girl, just a guy soul wearing the mask of girl. hahaha~~it's true!
i always tel my fren, guys in my heart is nothing. i think they r not reliable at all, i didnt trust anyone, cz they disappointed me much in many thing. i rather depends on myself than the guys.

anyway, i know that the life with love is important to the girls. as my mom say, i can just do nothign but stay alone if i continue like tis. yes, may be it will be happen, but at least now i m happy, n no target to be loved o to love someone.

my life is simple, be amile, be happy. n everything just" let it go"~~, just like my couple, i dun know where n when my mr. right will come, but i just wanna let it go now. to be natural, do anything i like here, n so, the rest is others opinion.

快乐的是，我们是朋友

我觉得，人的感情很奇怪。当你决定对感情死心的时候，另一端感情可能就在这个时候趁机窜入。我对他的感觉不深，我知道我只是对他一时敬佩。或许太久没有男生对我好了，我才会迷了心窍。
他很自信。这么的他，根本就已经和我是两个世界的人。我很平凡，根本没人会认真地去注意。但是他却那么地耀眼，我很自卑，在他的面前，我永远只是小孩子。我不要。我希望我能不同于他人，但是我知道自己根本没有魅力可言，甚至不能说是真正的女生。大概，人生就是这么地压抑。我不能告诉他我对他的好感，我不算是他的朋友，如果连路人甲的身份都让他不屑了，那么我就无路可退了。
我喜欢他的笑容。是灿烂的，让人想要跟着他一起微笑。人，是平凡的，但因为笑容，突然，人就会散发出一种快乐的氛围。我喜欢他的正面气息，不会让人感觉黑暗的世界。我不期待什么，但是能当个朋友，我觉得，我应该要满足了。强求，不会有什么结果，更可况，结果已经在眼前了。